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Take A Deep Breath And Smile

Right now I am in a state of mind where I am angry at someone for making me smile, ready for REAL school (not just information and research school) and ready for uphill battle climbing. That is SO not typical me!

It confuses me that I am stepping out of my comfort zone and typicality. It is positive, but it scares me. I know myself well enough to know that I can’t handle all of this at once, but I’m hoping this is a chance for me to prove that I can! I can handle the responsibility, I can handle the pressure and I can succeed.

I try to find something positive in everything, but it’s easier to tell others what is positive in their problems than find them in my own. Sitting at school being super bored and trying to teach myself something useful instead of doing nothing. This is wrong because I should be doing what the teacher tells me to do. Don’t get me wrong, I do what I’m told, I just don’t do it as well as I could.

The upside to this “situation” is that I am not using all my energy contemplating about boys. For some reason that takes a lot of energy. Boys, boys, boys. For teenage girls they are like a crossword puzzle, we put in one word after the other and when we think we got it right we figure out that everything is wrong and we got to start all over again. This isn’t anything to complain about, but it takes up so much of our thoughts that in my case I get exhausted!

Surround yourself with positive things, people and thoughts (!) and everything is easier to handle, believe it or not.

“I won’t let the negativity turn me into my enemy, promise to myself that I won’t let it get the best of me. That’s how I want to be.” Think Good Thoughts – Colbie Caillat (All Of You – 2011)

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Just Breathe

I don’t know why I write this. It’s just lately I’ve had the need to write. Not for a reason, just to get it out I think. You know how it is. You’re 16; schools a drag, there’s a boy messing with your head, your parents always complaining. It takes a lot of energy from me. And it doesn’t help when there’s more than one boy who’s messing with you head. There’s the ex who is still in love with you. The stupid boy you don’t like who likes you.

And the guy you like, but does he like you back? I don’t know! He sends SUCH mixed signals; well, I do as well, so I really can’t complain.

And then there’s the: I’m too fat; I’m too ugly problem. And it doesn’t help when your mom says you’re fat as well as your head telling you. Yeah, I cried myself to sleep that night!

And now? What is it now? I don’t feel like my parents notice me, something which is weird seen that I am an only child. But they’re ALWAYS complaining; saying that I don’t help out around the house. Well, it’s true, but once I actually do something they forget it after two minutes! And I don’t really know why, but I just feel so empty right now. Right now I’m sitting here telling myself: Breathe, breathe, breathe! Maybe it’ll help?

“I can’t breathe without you, but I have to.” Taylor Swift ft. Colbie Caillat – Breathe (Fearless 2009)