The Sun Will Always Shine After The Storm

I can’t stand being confused and insecure. I go back and forth inside my head. Thinking about all possible outcomes of whatever the situation. I swear one day my head will explode form over thinking.

A confused teenage girl is not the best thing in the world. Personally I have a feeling that everything I do is wrong. I take hours just to figure out whether I am happy or sad. I’m super tired of not knowing everything. I wish I could adapt Einstein’s brain and be super smart, at least then I wouldn’t have to be concerned about school and grades. It’s just a phase, right? So one day everything will be clear again, I hope.

I’ve got everything coming my way lately: new CDs, summer vacation soon here, some extra days off at school and the sun is reported to shine very soon. I’ve got plenty of time to work on my guitar and photography skills, even tough I doubt I will get any better. Hoping for a great summer, and less confusion!

“I’m finally broken, falling too far, burned up in pieces from chasing your stars. With twilight approaching all that I’ve seen, I could never get over what you’ve done to me.” NEEDTOBREATHE – What You’ve Done To Me (The Outsiders – 2009)

The Unknown Water

Have you ever felt like you’re way into a new territory, and you don’t know whether to go further in or run as fast as you can out? I am referring to love now. Referring to the part of love where you have no clue on where to go, where you are or what you’re doing.

I am far in the land of “I don’t know where to go or what to do!” I have no idea how I got here, or how to get out. Maybe I shouldn’t get out? But I’m so afraid that if I stay I’ll end up heartbroken. I know that that’s life, but if you ca spare yourself from one, I don’t see why you shouldn’t.

Taylor Swift spoke up about her view on love to In Style, she said “There are no rules when it comes to love. I just try to let love surprise me because you never know who you’re going to fall in love with. You never know who’s going to come into your life.” And I do agree with her, but I am too scared to jump, because I know there’s a chance I will fall alone (Yes, bad reference to Taylors Jump then fall song).

When I don’t know what to do, I try to just think positive. I tell myself that “Everything happens for a reason, and everything works out for the better somewhere down the road!” Because whether you believe it or not: this is usually what happens.

“In your ocean, I’m ankle deep. I feel the waves crashin’ on my feet. It’s like I know where I need to be, but I can’t figure out.” NEEDTOBREATHE – Something Beautiful (The Outsiders – 2009)