Right now I am in a state of mind where I am angry at someone for making me smile, ready for REAL school (not just information and research school) and ready for uphill battle climbing. That is SO not typical me!
It confuses me that I am stepping out of my comfort zone and typicality. It is positive, but it scares me. I know myself well enough to know that I can’t handle all of this at once, but I’m hoping this is a chance for me to prove that I can! I can handle the responsibility, I can handle the pressure and I can succeed.
I try to find something positive in everything, but it’s easier to tell others what is positive in their problems than find them in my own. Sitting at school being super bored and trying to teach myself something useful instead of doing nothing. This is wrong because I should be doing what the teacher tells me to do. Don’t get me wrong, I do what I’m told, I just don’t do it as well as I could.
The upside to this “situation” is that I am not using all my energy contemplating about boys. For some reason that takes a lot of energy. Boys, boys, boys. For teenage girls they are like a crossword puzzle, we put in one word after the other and when we think we got it right we figure out that everything is wrong and we got to start all over again. This isn’t anything to complain about, but it takes up so much of our thoughts that in my case I get exhausted!
Surround yourself with positive things, people and thoughts (!) and everything is easier to handle, believe it or not.
“I won’t let the negativity turn me into my enemy, promise to myself that I won’t let it get the best of me. That’s how I want to be.” Think Good Thoughts – Colbie Caillat (All Of You – 2011)