There comes a moment in everyone’s life when you leave the nest. When you leave your childhood home, alone or together with someone. Either way, you most likely won’t live in the same house your whole life. Maybe your parents’ gets a divorce, and you move away with one or both parents. Maybe you leave for collage, or university, or just getting out of there and stating your own life. Maybe you move out with a ring around your finger. Or in my case, your parents decide that they’re tired of lawn mowing and trimming hedges.
No, I am not happy about their decisions. In fact I hate it. I want to stay here, here where I feel safe. Here where I got to know all my friends. In the living room where I used to watch SpongeBob square pants, and later watching MTV for just a few minutes before leaving for school. In my two bedrooms where I as a little girl “played” music with my friends, or danced around the room singing early Maria Mena lyrics phonetically correct. And in the bedroom where I later learned to actually play guitar, and dace around singing Taylor Swift lyrics perfectly correct. The staircase where I got my first kiss, the bathroom with perfect acoustics to help me practice my singing.
Another reason not to leave is the fact that over the last 13 years or so we’ve kept renovating every single room in the house. Everything is never perfect. Because when we’ve gotten to the last room my dad says it’s been such a long time since the first room was renovated so he starts over. I mean, yes, it was a relief to get rid of the yellow walls and the green couch in the living room. But when I had finally gotten my parents to agree to paint my room yellow, they decide that they shall sleep there and that meant painting it white. And we all know perfectly well that even though the new apartment is perfect there is always something that need to be renovated. Oh yes, I said apartment. They want to move me into an apartment building! Now when I’m a teenager and probably at my loudest they decide to move me in to a building with many other people. Great. Everyone will hear me singing in the shower, out of the shower, and I will probably stop singing again! I don’t know if I can handle that right now. Yes it sounds silly, but guitar and singing is all I’ve got now because I can’t train. I am just devastated. It’s not like they haven’t mentioned it before, but last time it ended up with them renovating one of the bathrooms. So why move out under a year after building the dream bathroom? How far do you think they would go to prove they love me?
“How do I lie awake now, when I know I’ve got to be moving on? How do I lie awake now, when nothing’s right and nothing’s wrong?” Lie Awake – Alison Krauss And The Union Station (Paper Airplane – 2011)
I read Shania Twains self-biography From This Moment On while on vacation. I would strongly recommend her fans, book lovers and pretty much just anyone who is interested in learning something to read the book.
I am a huge fan of Shania’s music, or Eileen, and reading her life story just made me appreciate her music even more. I see a lot of my self in Shania, but even more; I see a lot of Taylor Swift in Shania. This makes sense seeing that Shania is, probably, Taylor’s biggest inspiration.
Shania definitely has not lived an easy life. She was born into a violent and rather poor family. She had to take much of her mothers’ role in the family at an early age, and this shaped the woman that she is today. Shania truly opens up in her book and explains her pain during her childhood, how she coped when her parents died, how exhausted she was during endless tours and how she broke down when her (ex-) husband cheated on her with her best friend. Shania describes the effort she put in her “perfect appearance” and the struggles to let it go and show vulnerability.
At the end of her book Shania writes about how she views herself and how she compares herself with other, younger women. I believe practically every girl or woman out there does this, we compare ourselves to those we know are prettier than us. It’s a stupid thing to do really.
After all of Shania’s uphill battles, and after all the climbing, she found her place and her happiness. I don’t know what to say, Shania just opens up and let everyone in on what she’s been up to and why she is the person she is today. An above it all: the book has a happy ending!
“From this moment, life has begun. From this moment, you are the one. Right beside you is where I belong, from this moment on.” From This Moment On – Shania Twain (Come On Over – 1997)
I love my guitar. I love to sit down and play for myself. I like the way the guitar sounds. They say a piano keys sounds like a million colors even though they are only black and white. But the six strings on a guitar can make just the same wonders, and it’s easier to carry around!
A song with only a guitar can be the most beautiful song you’ve ever heard. I’m not saying that a piano song can’t, I love the piano too – I do! But there’s something about the guitar, the six strings of steel. They can sound like velvet if you play them right. They can portray the greatest of pain, and the most joyful tunes.
I’m sitting in the bed listening to a great CD packed with great use of guitars. The guitar fills the songs so beautifully it’s a joy to even hear the heartbreaking pain in some of the songs.
Music was made to enjoy. To show emotion. To feel the emotion. Taylor Swift once said, “When a song describes a feeling you can’t explain yourself, it becomes your favorite song.” I agree with her. And we know that if a songwriter put their heart in the song the song becomes more relatable, and this only proves Taylors saying. Taylor herself writes with more than just her heart, she writes with her memory. She writes thing exactly how they where: what the clock was, where it happened, what color his eyes where, what he made her feel and even his name. Some people don’t like Taylor and that’s okay, but no one can say that she doesn’t write her heart out in a song.
“On a tank of gas and an empty heart, But I’ve got everything I’ll ever need. I got this old guitar and a brand new set of strings.” Miranda Lambert – New Strings (Kerosene – 2005)
Have you ever felt like you’re way into a new territory, and you don’t know whether to go further in or run as fast as you can out? I am referring to love now. Referring to the part of love where you have no clue on where to go, where you are or what you’re doing.
I am far in the land of “I don’t know where to go or what to do!” I have no idea how I got here, or how to get out. Maybe I shouldn’t get out? But I’m so afraid that if I stay I’ll end up heartbroken. I know that that’s life, but if you ca spare yourself from one, I don’t see why you shouldn’t.
Taylor Swift spoke up about her view on love to In Style, she said “There are no rules when it comes to love. I just try to let love surprise me because you never know who you’re going to fall in love with. You never know who’s going to come into your life.” And I do agree with her, but I am too scared to jump, because I know there’s a chance I will fall alone (Yes, bad reference to Taylors Jump then fall song).
When I don’t know what to do, I try to just think positive. I tell myself that “Everything happens for a reason, and everything works out for the better somewhere down the road!” Because whether you believe it or not: this is usually what happens.
“In your ocean, I’m ankle deep. I feel the waves crashin’ on my feet. It’s like I know where I need to be, but I can’t figure out.” NEEDTOBREATHE – Something Beautiful (The Outsiders – 2009)
The story starts when a girl is born. As she grows her many diseases are discovered. Yes, she is very sick, but survives. As she starts at school she’s only got one friend in her class. She doesn’t have many friends outside of class either. She spends her days watching Sponge Bob on Nickelodeon. Soon enough she has to fight for her friends, too bad she doesn’t know how. She cries, she screams, but nothing helps. Soon enough she discovers her muscles, and soon enough she learned to only use her muscles in sports. She learned to use her big mouth in the right ways.
Soon enough she feels alone. She feels the need of a loving boy. She closes up; she doesn’t want anyone to know. She becomes insecure. She’s too fat, too lazy, not concentrated, and not good at school. Nothing is good enough.
In comes prince charming. He’s got HUGE muscles. His blue eyes are breathtaking. And his sweet, white smile is heart melting. He can make her day just by giving her a look. He is a soccer player – a good soccer player. He’s not all that good at school, but she can always teach him. Sometimes she feels like she is too smart for him, and other times he is too smart for her. He just has to be perfect.
The blue-eyed boy takes on his black cloak and disappears in the night. When the sun rises the morning after a white horse is seen in the horizon. The prince on top of the white horse has got dark hair. His deep brown eyes make her fall. She falls deep for him, just when she thinks she will never fall in love again. He’s rich and caring. He will never let her down. He will never make her sit alone at Valentines. He likes to bring her presents. And doesn’t miss an opportunity to be with her, even if it’s just for a second. They get married, have a big dream wedding, and have two kids and a big house.
Yes, this is what a fairytale movie would be like. You’re brokenhearted only once, or hopefully never. The shining knight comes riding in on a white horse – or in this case prince. But it’s only a movie – at least for me. For those who are lucky enough to have this movie life, where everything works out in the end are darn lucky. I wish I were that lucky.
“Come back come back to me, like you would you would if this was a movie, stand in the rain outside till I came out.” Taylor swift – If This Was a Movie (Speak Now – 2010)
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Ever heard of “safe music”? Ever wondered what “safe music” is?
Well, that sort of depends on whom you ask. Highly religious Christian people may say that rock and hip-hop does NOT fall under this group. Or that electro is far from safe, but in fact “safe music” has nothing to do with the genre it is. Not if you ask illuminati believers and opponents.
There are these believes that musicians have sold their souls to “Rain man”, or Satan if you like, and hide messages in their music videos and lyrics. These messages are visible to us, but still we don’t notice them. And even if we do notice them, we let them pass. We let them pass ‘cause we’re used to them. The triangle and the eye, haven’t we all seen them? I know for a fact that I’ve just let them pass for almost all my life, just because I didn’t know what it meant. Well I sort of knew, but never really took the time and effort to fully understand it. Now, after watching some videos on YouTube, I think that my ignorance may have paid me well. Those videos are rather freaky!
But back to “safe music”: Jay-Z, Eminem, Kanye West, Rihanna and Katy Perry are supposedly some of the musicians who have sold their souls (documentation was scary good!). Jay-Z and Katy supposedly also talked about it to the media. I mean: it could have had another meaning. Taylor Swift is according to an other video also supposed to have sold her soul because of a certain hand gesture and the fact that she’s worn a red dress (or really more than once), that video was not believable. But further on in “the series” it starts being a laugh. Yes, there are things in this world that doesn’t quite add up. Some loose ends are for example deaths of celebrities like Michael Jackson, but honestly I don’t think the illuminati is as powerful as these videos would like then to be. Then again I will admit that there is something fish in this world we’re living in, and there are some things we don’t control. I just think there is something/someone else behind it. You can go to YouTube and search for “THE MUSIC INDUSTRY EXPOSED” if you’d like to watch it youself.
Still: the faces, the codes and signs are scary. I know for a fact that I’m listening to hard-core Christian country for a few days now, just to be on the safe side with my sanity.
“Don’t forget to throw in a little forgivin’, and lovin’ on the way. You better get to knowin’, showin’, a little bit more concerned about where you’re goin’.”
Dolly Parton – Better Get To Livin’ (Backwoods Barbie – 2007)
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I don’t know why I write this. It’s just lately I’ve had the need to write. Not for a reason, just to get it out I think. You know how it is. You’re 16; schools a drag, there’s a boy messing with your head, your parents always complaining. It takes a lot of energy from me. And it doesn’t help when there’s more than one boy who’s messing with you head. There’s the ex who is still in love with you. The stupid boy you don’t like who likes you.
And the guy you like, but does he like you back? I don’t know! He sends SUCH mixed signals; well, I do as well, so I really can’t complain.
And then there’s the: I’m too fat; I’m too ugly problem. And it doesn’t help when your mom says you’re fat as well as your head telling you. Yeah, I cried myself to sleep that night!
And now? What is it now? I don’t feel like my parents notice me, something which is weird seen that I am an only child. But they’re ALWAYS complaining; saying that I don’t help out around the house. Well, it’s true, but once I actually do something they forget it after two minutes! And I don’t really know why, but I just feel so empty right now. Right now I’m sitting here telling myself: Breathe, breathe, breathe! Maybe it’ll help?
“I can’t breathe without you, but I have to.” Taylor Swift ft. Colbie Caillat – Breathe (Fearless 2009)